Looking Back, Looking Forward

Well, in about two hours from now and one year ago I was in a complete panic and on the phone with Dr. Meekhof because my water started leaking. Three hours later I was officially an inpatient- on the monitor, with IV antibiotics and terbutaline. I look back on that whole experience and can still conjure up the way my stomach felt when I realized 'this is completely out of my control.' It was really a helpless kind of feeling. That was the longest ride to the hospital ever. I could swear we hit every stoplight on the way. When I stop and think about it, I know that we're never REALLY in control of anything. But, it doesn't change the fact that I'm such a type A personality. I like having things planned..and things planned for the first thing I planned. I like it best when everything falls into place and is in order. I guess I would say my entire hospital experience last year was very humbling.

It's so bizarre. Now that the boys are here it's seems so strange that we ever had a life without them. It's crazy to think that a year ago I had an inkling of who these little people were, and now we have such little personalities in our house. Some days I wish I could just stop time for a bit and keep them little. I've gotten ridiculously sentimental since they've been born. I realized towards the end of last month that December was their 'last first month.' I was completely sad about it!

Moving on...I'm starting to plan a 1st birthday party! I think we're going to do an elephant theme. :) Took the boys into town today. I usually keep an arsenal of their cereal, but realized today I was most of the way through the last box. So, off to Babies 'R Us we went. 8 boxes of cereal and 60 jars of food later we were on our way. Lately each time I buy baby food I keep saying this will be the last time..and then we run out of this or that. We're moving along with table foods and the boys feeding themselves- but I think they're still not proficient enough to get a whole meal's worth on their own yet. We see the pediatrician in less than a month so I'll check in with him and see what he says. Hopefully he can give me a bit more guidance than our old pediatrician. Once again..Type A..I want a specific game plan! You would think it wouldn't be so complicated (and maybe it's not) but when you have kids who were so little to begin with you get a bit obsessed over weight gain and making sure you're feeding them enough, etc. Call it an old hangup from the NICU days.

Quinn has found a new sound he can make. He gets a big kick out of clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth. It's so cute to watch them realize these new noises they can make. Parker seems to be growing by leaps and bounds (they both are really..but Parker has pulled ahead again in the chunk dept). The other day I got on the scale and then weighed myself with each of them. Not too official but Parker was 17.2lbs and Quinn was 16. OH! Quinn got his first haircut today!!! Auntie Maria came over with her 'tools' and gave him a good trim. I knew that he needed a cut but didn't realize how BADLY he needed it until I saw the end result. No more 'handlebar mustache' in the back. Quinn's still got that bald spot on the back of his head and his hair at his neckline was longer on each side than in the middle. Jason said the bald spot looked like a mouth and the hair around it like a handlebar mustache. Only my husband! Quinn looks like a little man now..so cute. I'll post pictures of his big haircut tomorrow.

Going to run for now. Hope everyone is having a great week!